# What was these all about?

### My First 9 Months in the Rabbit Hole

Hey everyone, I’m Vix. I decided to write this because I want to share the perspective of a fresh, dumbass guy who just started college and dove headfirst into cybersecurity. This is my journey from knowing nothing to where I am now (probably level 1, lol), a story of the constant grinding, frustrations, and motivations from the last nine months.

From the start of the year, I've been driven by a passion for this field, it’s my purpose (seriously, cybersecurity saved me, but that’s for another story…). I just loved breaking things, from labs to CTFs to real-world practices. I didn’t even know it could be a career until I discovered Bug Bounty Programs. That’s where my story really begins.

#### Head Banging The Wall

I started hunting for roughly a month (for the whole of August, I guess) and submitted some shitty ass bugs. The results were one "informative" or "N/A" after another. I felt a bit discouraged, especially since I set a goal to get my first payout by the end of the year and seeing others get great bounties and stuff like that (you know, bragging about it) and I JUST WANT TO BE ONE OF THEM! I felt like I was too naive to set a goal like that. Sometimes it feels impossible and I get stressed out. There are just too many things to learn and too many things to do (and in reality, it is). You know the feeling that you really want to prove them wrong, or thinking that when you get it, you're really one of them. Otherwise, you feel like an outsider, and you just can’t help but try to make it happen. I was too attached to the idea that “to prove is to achieve,” but I was wrong. It should be “to prove is to do.”

#### What's the price??

It is tough, really tough, and that’s the beauty of it. We are… just learning through the process. If there are no failures, then there are no successes. If it weren’t for those informative bugs, I wouldn’t even know how the triagers and the customers think, and I wouldn’t know how to identify false positives, etc. Those are the stepping stones for one to reach the top. Well, not the top, but better than you were before, right?

The surprising thing is that I never feel like quitting (I guess that’s just a sense of purpose). After I realized that what I truly enjoy is the process itself, not the results of getting paid or points, but learning via the process (but you know, achieving goals feels good).

#### AI thingy

I think most of the time, humans just love to create problems for themselves. It’s all from our thoughts and predictions. Yes, I was afraid that AI agents could just replace us. You see the big drop like XBOW and other agents, huh? Still, it’s uncertain how effective its process is (at least for me). 

I’m just a dumbass kid who started college like 20 days ago. College is another thing tho. I’ve been thinking about whether I really like it or not. In fact, during my high school years, I had the thought of dropping out of college to solely focus on doing BBPs, and to this day, the thought of dropping out is still in my head (not just to do BBPs, but to make something I feel like needs to be made). Most of the time, I feel like it’s a waste of time, especially my major. My major is languages (well, how about that?). Yes, languages. To be honest, I’m not enjoying this major (well, it’s because of how Taiwan’s education system failed me here, but I'm not going into details). If I were to continue college, then I might as well change my major to CS for my own interest, and I think that’s what matters. 

Doing things I like is a blessing. You see, how many people are just aiming for money and surviving while they are not doing what they really like? Are they truly living? or just existing? By the way, it’s not age or other factors, it’s whether for one to take actions or not. You can learn anything you want.

#### **Final Thoughts**

I just turned 18, and I’m lucky enough to find my interests this early. Imma to be honest, tomorrow or even today could be the last day for me and you to live, and I just love learning more about cybersecurity as a whole. I have no regrets because I already got what I wanted. The goals are by-products of **doing**, they will eventually come to you. And I will still try to achieve my goals and focus more on the present.

<p align="center"><em><strong>“Do not think that what is hard for you to master is humanly impossible; and if it is humanly possible, consider it to be within your reach.” ― Marcus Aurelius</strong></em></p>

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Sorry for the bad writing, there were so many things in my head that I want to talk about while doing this. Well, thanks for hearing me yap about my life.&#x20;

UPDATE: After a month or so I finally got my first bounty! I would say just keep going for fuck sake

If you have any questions or just want to chat, you can add me on Discord or reach out to me on X (Twitter). I really appreciate your time here. Okay, I’m going to discover more cool stuff. Cya.


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